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Thursday, 20 September 2012

I'm tired of trying to explain why my mind doesn't fucking work on the same wavelength as everyone else's. Bottom line is, I feel that someone is doing me a great favor just by being my friend. So I don't feel that it's my place to ask for anything more.

Sorry to Dawn and my NOs for the abrupt halt to the meeting.
Just couldn't focus on anything else after that incident.

 And for the record, unicorns and fairy tales won't be able to survive in my world.

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Oh dear god.
Why does Wei Wen have to look hotter the more I see him?!
His ass is still fantastic, even though he's lost some weight.
STOP LOSING WEIGHT PLEASE!! O_O
You're perfect then, you're still perfect now!

Su and Priya gave me those evil grins when they saw me drooling over him, with a SUPER blush on my cheeks. And then he just had to stop by my cubicle to check on his patient's casenotes, giving me the perfect view of his ass from my position at the meds trolley just outside the room. His pants looked like he snitched them from Jega, that brown fabric thingie. BUT he pulled it off with aplomb, which Jega couldn', even with that similarly fantastic ass of his. Yes, even with a hundred things on my mind I still can focus on tiny details like how his pants look like Jega's. ;P

And later, Aung MO came up and SMILED at me. O_O
I swear, that was the scariest thing ever. 
Even seeing Tay GS smile at patients wasn't as terrifying.
He asked why I wore the back brace thing. And then smiled somemore.
Maybe he has a concussion or something. Creepy.

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Tuesday, 18 September 2012

The week just keeps getting better and better.

Latest ward outing is pushed back to 5th Oct.
Fantastic. I'm stuck. Sister's going to grant AM/DO to those who want to go for the paintball game. I have the mother/daughter dinner planned, so I can't go for the outing. Since I won't be going to the outing, I'll probably be stuck with a PM shift. Which means, I can't go for the dinner.  FUCK!! 


But on the bright side, I breezed through my BCLS/AED re-cert today.
For the first time ever, I had a near-perfect CPR attempt.
I blew just fine. I just need to press HARDER. Ahahaha.

DEVI. I LOVE YOU. MANY MANY.
For making me laugh my head off about you and your husband.
And about me and Jega. AND ABOUT YOU WITH YOUR HUBBY AND JEGA.
Citot. Scandal belambak! YOU HAVE A RING, WOMAN! WEAR IT!

And I nak chappati, dey. Cook nice one for me, thank yuuuuuuu.
Can't believe you wasted twenty minutes bitching about something, and I wasted another twenty minutes bitching about something else while playing with cardboard arches. We need to spend more quality time together laa. Screw Kasey and Jega. They can go layan each other while we do our girl thing, hahaha!

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Monday, 17 September 2012

Previous entry re-sited.
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Monday, 3 September 2012

He didn't call me this year to wish me.
I feel lost. You never fail to greet me each year, no matter what.
It meant a lot to me, especially since I was forced to choose someone else over you.
You knew I had to delete all traces of you, yet you still called each year, and for a few minutes, you made me feel like everything's ok. 

I miss you, kid.
I'm sorry I chose her and him over you.
You stuck by me through secondary school, adjusting your schedule to me adjusting mine to accommodate hers. You probably knew me better than she did, and you're the main reason why I developed the confidence to accept myself as who I am, even though I was an ugly, socially-awkward teenager with rebel issues back then. You made me feel special, and that was something I desperately needed then. All that teenage angst and nowhere to run to was killing me. But you talked me out of stupid stuff when it got too much for me to handle, even coming by my block after midnight to accompany me until the urge to hurt myself passed. 

That's why it tore me up badly when he made me choose between you and him.
It was like I had to throw a part of myself away to please him. It pissed me off that he couldn't understand you were the ONLY friend I wanted to keep close to me. But I still chose to sever all ties with you to placate him, because I was an idiot in love. 

I might not be your best friend anymore, but you'd always be mine.
You said once that after I left Dunman, you changed for the better because of my influence on you when I was still at school. I didn't nag or ask you to change your ways, but you felt like changing yourself to become a better person. I was so touched when you said that, because I didn't expect to have such a significant impact on someone's life. I'm proud of you!

I can never thank you enough for making me feel pretty even though I looked so fucking ugly back then. It took a few years for me to gain the confidence to finally feel comfortable in my own skin, but I finally did it. Even now, when I feel ugly, I just think of the times you told me you think I'm pretty no matter what, and it makes me feel better. ^^

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Sunday, 2 September 2012

I need therapy. ;^;
I seriously couldn't stop staring at Dr NS' hair!
Oh gosh it's so cute, that little shark fin of his!
Especially now that his hair is a little longer and shaggier, compared to that first time when I started thinking his baby shark fin was so freaking adorable. ._. 

I think An felt like smacking some sense into me, when I started whimpering that I wanted to play with NS' hair, hahaha! I just kept staring at the back of his head, mentally messing up that hairstyle of his. AND LICKING IT THE WAY PIIYOU LICKS MY HAIR.

So yea, therapy, stat. Please! x_x
I don't understand why his hair intrigues me to the point that I'm obsessed about it. 
I mean, it's expected that Noufie drools over guys with beefy arms and nice asses and seductive voices. Just not over a hairstyle. An adorable baby shark fin hairstyle. Toloooong!

My mom found it HILARIOUS when I told her how I ran to An 
to majok about how NS rejected my offer of potato chips. x)
An said that maybe he didn't like chips, maybe he preferred sandwiches instead.
(OMG An, you have no idea what kind of images you placed in my head, did you?!)
I cracked up at how An hastily backed away from me when I told him I'd personally feed NS sandwiches, begging me to "please don't do it in front of (him)". Hahaha!

He also found it interesting how I get tongue-tied when Dr JT and WW is around, but that I can still at least make conversation with NS, albeit with my eyes cast on anywhere BUT his face. I don't know why either - maybe because the only naughty thoughts I have of him are ones of me licking his baby fin? Those thoughts are innocent compared to what runs through my head when I see JT's ass, or WW's arms! ;P

So in an effort to curb this irrational fascination with NS, I sent a FB request. HAHA!
I figured that he's not likely to accept, so it makes me feel that there's still this "space" separating him from me, which also helps to keep me grounded. I told myself I'd never fall for a  doctor or have a massive crush on one, so god help him, he'd better not accept that FB request!

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 All in all, my birthday this year was pretty fine. ^^
Two days before the day, I followed rounds for one of Sham's patients, and WW was there!
He looks so sweet in his pale blue shirt, oh my gosh. He looks a little leaner too, kinda like his tummy got skinnier. I hope he knows I was staring ABOVE his belt, not BELOW it. ._.

 And then the day before my birthday? JT was on call! :D
It's been aaaaaages since I've seen him in the wards, now that he's under #.
So I had a happy time just stalking him from my place at the fall risk cubicle.
I love Joanna P, Dongxia and An for wanting to eat at Old Town after that shift, because JT was there too! All nicely showered and back in formal wear. AND HIS ASS. O_O Oh dear god, what the hell has he been doing?! They're perkier than ever! I was hungry for breakfast, but after seeing his ass (in one of his nicer pants!) my hunger completely flew out of the window! x)

 But like I told An, anything's better than last year's birthday.
He seemed so shocked when I told him I cried then, and the one two years before that.
Besides, NS was near me when it struck midnight, so I'm not complaining! :P

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 Sometimes I just feel like slapping myself with a dead lizard for 
having a crush so badly, up to a point where all logic defies reason. -_-; 
Sure, I have a crush on WW and JT, but those are minor compared to the MASSIVE crush I have on NS right now. Why laaaa?? Why do I have to have a crush on a doctor?!?! ;'( 

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